The best day of my life…

A couple of days ago I was laying out in the sun in this super comfy sun chair we have. Sounds chill right, and it was. But it used to feel like a chore. I’m very low in vitamin D so it’s feels like a medicinal thing, like homework, and for some reason I kinda fight the,  ‘I really should do kinda things’, you know like drinking more water, blah blah, blah.

Anyways this day I was laying there, it was a lil overcast so the sun kept going behind the clouds. But each time it came out, I was just bathed in the most beautiful warmth. All the noises faded into the background, except the birds and the bees enjoying the tree beside me. It just felt truly magical, I was fully relaxed, and I realised, that there were no ruminating or dysfunctional thoughts in my head. I was mentally at peace.

Now if you read yesterday’s blog, you might be thinking, umm how is that possible. But the thing is, being in a mentally healthy place, doesn’t mean that the things that sometimes bring you down aren’t still there. 

We’ve established I’m only a zen namaste kinda gal 50% of the time. The other 50, I’m a shit happened/happens kinda gal, and if we need to revisit it every now and then in order to function healthily, we will.

I will always be a rollercoaster, I have accepted that. I remind me of this quote.

I think I’m finally at a place in life where my mind is appreciating all the hard work the me’s have done to get us here.  I no longer find myself day dreaming about better outcomes or sabotaging myself with what ifs.

When I lay out in the sun now, sit on a beach, take a day trip, watch a show, I’m in the moment (unless of course something shinny distracts me, but that’s a whole other blog, maybe tomorrow 😊). I’m enjoying the now, I’m reaping the benefits of eliminating dysfunction and toxicity. There was a mourning period to doing that, an acceptance, a growing into mental healthiness.

There will still be days where I’m treading water, but they are much less often. I feel settled and comfortable in a life that is filled with consistency and normalcy.

Often when I’m blogging I come and go, (what can I say, I’m a lil hyper). There’s always lots of tabs open, just now I just left and popped over to pinterest and the first post in my feeds was this.  It was like it was waiting for me. It felt super relevant.

So often I’ll do something, like have a great sandwich, and say that was the best sandwich of my life, or this was the best cup of tea of my life, or the best day,  moment, meal, it can be anything really. And it’s not hollow, each time it’s the truth.

The thing is I’m genuinely grateful , ups and downs, happy.

Some of my blogs are intense and often reference my hurt and sadness. But that’s because I am a deeply feeling person. If you’re reading my blogs you will have figured that out, you probably are too, so you get it.

Deeply feeling people are always going to feel, and they are always going to need to address those feels. But addressing it is cleansing, it gets us through the darkness, enables us to really embrace the things that elevate us.

So, laying in the sun chair with no invasive thoughts, has levelled up to the best day of my life status.

29th July 2024

Footnote

I came across this quote today. The last couple of days have been a lil difficult, but I’ve been telling myself to find joy in the small things, to look for it. Most importantly to find it for myself, not to look to others to be a source of my joy and happiness. Others are flat out keeping themselves happy, let alone someone else.

I needed a reminder to be in the moment and thankfully after days of gloomy weather the sun came out today.

16th June 2025

A lil something I came across today Apricity..