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Today was the first time, since…. Strange, I still can’t say the words. It’s almost like if I say them, then it all becomes real. Even though it couldn’t be realer.

Anyway, I went there. I don’t remember the path ever being that long. I guess it was more like an adventure when I was a child. Now it almost feels like a punishment.

The whole way I kept telling myself I was in control, I could turn back anytime I chose. Yet deep down, I knew I’d relinquished any semblance of control the moment I made the decision to come back to this godforsaken place.