To Valentine or Not…

Today’s Valentine post. Am I fully into it, probably not, I think love and appreciation for your partner, family and friends shouldn’t be confined to a day. It should be any day or everyday. But as you can see by my above post, we,I,they,us tend to become complacent. The ways in which we show our gratitude are not as prolific as they may have been earlier on in relationships. Or even if they are, often the recognition is not the same, as the acts that were once seen/felt become normalised.

So maybe having a day on which we stop and take the time to really acknowledge someone else isn’t such a bad idea.

My card & gift , wasn’t as impressive as my partners effort.

But the card sums up where we are at five years into our relationship. We are super fond of each other, but often butt heads because we are very different to each other. He is somewhat conservative and I am a free spirit. Entering into a partnership in your mid 50’s, is a little different to growing through life together. Compromise is a big part of having a cohesive relationship.

If you’ve read a few of my blogs or follow my page you will know that I am fairly hard on myself, mainly the liking myself part, so it’s easy for me to feel like others would not like me either. It’s not a pity thing or anything like that, I’m just acutely aware of my negative traits, add in a side of abandonment issues and it’s easy for me to sometimes trip on negative thoughts and tumble down the rabbit hole. So as you can imagine, reassurances are helpful in maintaining an even keel.

Today I also received a gift in the mail from my bestie, I don’t get to see her much, mainly due to my health circumstances and distance, but she is still a very big part of my life. She is super creative, in fact 25 years ago she inspired me to my explore my creativity and continues to do so. Every now and then out of the blue something special arrives. Today this lil gem.

It’s these type of unexpected happenings, that somehow eventuate at the right time, like the universe senses you need a lift. Just the thought that whilst you are being hard on yourself, someone else has gone out of their way to do something special for you. For me, those acts are what carries me through, they restore my faith in humanity. Not universally, because collectively the world is fucked, and there’s no way to pretty that up. But in my lil ecosystem these random acts of kindness are enough to restore my balance.